I have some really bad news
Sep. 28th, 2012 10:27 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
digitaldolliesWhining under the cut, sorry to clutter people's f-list with this but I feel bad about not saying anything
I've been really quiet on the sims front because my hand is almost unusable. Then to compound that I fell and landed on my hands and it bent the wrist and hand almost double, luckily because it hasn't a very hard fall I just sprained it again (2nd degree) but the xrays concerned the ER docs enough that they referred me to completely different Orthopedic specialist, apparently the lack of healing of the hand/wrist caused quite a bit of concern and even though they tried to downplay it surgery was mentioned twice. I have the appointment on Tuesday. The first one stopped PT after 2 weeks, saying that it should naturally heal from that as long I take it easy.
I've already been battling severe depression over the whole thing, because no one really understands how much meshing and simming mean to me. I've been going to therapy(mental health) for about 4 weeks now and although he says that losing the ability to enjoy or participate in an hobby can be upsetting, I can tell he doesn't get how much of my life I have spent with the sims and the impact it has had on me, my life and sanity.
I've been really quiet on the sims front because my hand is almost unusable. Then to compound that I fell and landed on my hands and it bent the wrist and hand almost double, luckily because it hasn't a very hard fall I just sprained it again (2nd degree) but the xrays concerned the ER docs enough that they referred me to completely different Orthopedic specialist, apparently the lack of healing of the hand/wrist caused quite a bit of concern and even though they tried to downplay it surgery was mentioned twice. I have the appointment on Tuesday. The first one stopped PT after 2 weeks, saying that it should naturally heal from that as long I take it easy.
I've already been battling severe depression over the whole thing, because no one really understands how much meshing and simming mean to me. I've been going to therapy(mental health) for about 4 weeks now and although he says that losing the ability to enjoy or participate in an hobby can be upsetting, I can tell he doesn't get how much of my life I have spent with the sims and the impact it has had on me, my life and sanity.
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Date: 2012-10-01 12:04 pm (UTC)I would think that almost everyone here can understand just how upsetting this is for you. I know I'd be devastated if I couldn't Sim, or use Milkshape and Photoshop, etc., as it's such a big part of my life, so I can imagine how bereft you must feel. And it's not just the creating, but feeling like you're contributing to a community as well.
I really, really hope a solution can be found. Surgery sounds scary, but if it fixes the problem then it has to be worthwhile. And I'm always here if you need a friendly ear, and one that understands just what it must be like.
Take care, and keep us updated! *Huge hugs*
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Date: 2012-10-02 06:28 pm (UTC)And this right here describes how I feel:
And it's not just the creating, but feeling like you're contributing to a community as well.